some lines......

Some hidden fears never leave
As they ascend in thy soul
You dread it, shy away, panic
Reality seems something you want to elude
But there you stand facing it

My bolster, where art thou?,
I ask ,gazing aimlessly,
Shrouded by a painful trance,
The ‘shell’ of peace and happiness, I refuse to let go,
The hidden fear it is,
I dread it, shy away, panic
Reality seems something I want to elude,
But here I stand facing it.

couples not allowed..........

'only couples allowed' this statement i guess we are familiar with considering the fact that they are one of the 'must' sentence's in many 'party' advertisements which come in the newspaper.....

so the other day when a whiteboard read the following statement in bold black letters -->'couples NOT allowed' ,i actually re-read that to confirm if my eyes were not assuming things.

and this whiteboard was placed outside a internet cafe!!!lol.....

(what,why,......left to the imagination of the reader!!)

mini taxi.....

mini taxi.....

















dedicated to the mini taxi's (mehdipatnam-HCU route).....


For those who are not aware of what a mini taxi is,it is a extended version of an auto,has three wheels, can accommodate six people at the rear end and two more in the front excluding the driver.Actually the number of people it can accommodate depends on the driver and his mood...it can even go upto 15,dont ask me how....

i owe a lot to this mode of transport.Two semesters of first hour attendance at college all thanks to the 'mini taxi' travel!!.
Unlike the bus(public transport) here the guy respectfully invites you,and also an added attraction is the music player which this taxi houses even though mostly what it plays would be Himesh Reshamiyya crap.Actually it was during one such travel that i was inspired to write a testimonial for a friend who is a hardcore reshamiya fan. :P

These mini taxi's become mini libraries when it is exam time ...because it is during this travel to college when the topper's notes is given a last minute glance to crap something in the exam.

These taxi's also provide the opportunity to meet awesome looking guys(the last stop being hi-tech city..(read:i never really cared..was too busy with i-pods/head phones....one of my many repentances)

Last but not the least the taxi driver always drops you inside college right in front of your block!!who would do that??that too at the nominal charge of a bus ticket...blah a rupee more!! :-P


mini taxi's..... they rule!!!!.....

man ke darpan mein......

man ke darpan mein......

this song by the fusion band 'om' has some amazing poetically woven lyrics,a very mild background music and specifically the flute leaves a soothing effect....

http://www.raaga.com/channels/hindi/movie/HP000028.html

no hot coffee........

this phase in life
when everything seems nice
looking back i can recall it all
the moments which made it tough
but again some others all bright
now its all past,as i try to look ahead.

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no hot coffee so a brownie???ok...an ice tea and a frappe...

(two (would be)doc's and an engineer meet after 6 years recall their days together)... hell lot of gossip.....some things which were long forgotten (some intended)

-okay fine!!!..i fell off a chair in front of my entire class!!(not my fault..a gal had moved the chair out..)
-this xyz bringing out her own range of designer clothing.(in anycase how rich are these ppl!!!)
-marriages,commitment issues and more of that crap...(the long story ....)
-some pranks....(way too censored....)
-the foodies!!!
-a (fukad)tropical iceberg on the house!!!(has this ever happened....nice..)..
-a jalak of the doc and her diagnosing skills ...(read:very impressive)



...........i miss school!!!!!........................
ps.love you guys!!!timmy and neha!!!.....

10 things every dog should know!!!! lol....

took this from a blog for labs!!!totally worth a read!!

10 good things every dog should know!

1. The garbage men are not stealing our things.
2. Don't stand up suddenly, when you're under the coffee table.
3. Shake your coat, before going into the house.
4. Don't lick a cup, when there is hot tea in it.
5. When you hear a doorbell: don't bark. It's on TV.
6. No stealing of underwear and running with it in the backyard.
7. Do not roll in the dirt after bathing.
8. Pushing your nose in someone's crotch, is not an acceptable welcome greeting.
9. Don't eat paper handkerchiefs or diapers.
10. No rolling over dead animals, just because they smell so good.

the gal i never was and one i will never want to be.......

The last week i spent most of my time reading my slam book and on self analyzation.
My friends and some not really 'friends' have been kind enough to fill in the 'lines for you' column...

these are the jist of adjectives i got-(dunno how much of it is true...whtevr...)

-pretty nice,decent,innocent(read dumb)
-sweet chatter box,active,enthusiastic,charming,intelligent,cheerful,grt singer
-fun
-bubbly,simple,encouraging
-half cracked,need to improve mindset to survive
-dependable,great company to be with
-positive attitude
-friendly,cute
-caring and understanding
-cool
-cute chik and a nightingale when it comes to singing

my take on this after some self analyzation

-positive attitude---->this is something i RARELY reflect.
-dependable--->well that i am!! :-)
-cute chik and a nightingale when it comes to singing -->ROFL!!!the person has been way too kind and generous!!(i would have considered 'sarcastic' but he is way too sweet n not th sarcastic kinds...)
-innocent(read dumb)--->well to sme extent true!!! :-( (and dumb would be in cases where i totally trust the wrong ppl!!)
-simple-->guess that i am!! :-)
-grt singer--->i really wish i can overcome my laziness and put some blood for my singing!
-half cracked,need to improve mindset to survive-->half cracked...ya totally!!! ;-) ...and abt my mindset--- i dont believe being cunning,lying at the cost of someone for self gain(not that i am a total satyavadhi or something),throwing a false attitude trying to act like someone you are not,showing total indifference and behaving irresponsibly is something you need to survive....

i agree i have faced tough times(and did lose some very important things) the last few months thanks to being simple,straight forward ...i actually started cursing myself for not being cunning and self centered... but at the end of the day when people actually came up and thanked me for my presence and said it made a biig difference to them(i agree this can never make up for wht i lost!!)it still made me realise you can still achieve things by being the way you are!!...and maybe a lil more hard work,dedication and caution when you trust people should do the trick!!and well if you still dont make it....thats ok!!!..its not the end of life!!!......

-and abt the cool,fun company to be with,friendly,cute,caring and understanding--->i cant really judge this!!


All happens for good....(i honestly hate this line!! :-P)

the gal i never was and one i will never want to be.......

.....my top 10 songs!!!

well this is going to be soo diffcult....chooosing my fav 10 songs from an infinite list...mmmm.....tough tough...and here it goes...

(1)pehala nasha
(2)panchi nidiyan(for the lyrics)
(3)breathless(shankar mahadevan)
(4)piya bina(abhimaan)
(5)megha chaye adhi raat
(6)narumugaye
(7)margalipoove
(8)swadesh(most of the songs cant choose!!!)
(9)hum naye geet sunaye(viva)
(10)jane kya jane man...



ppl do add ur list!!!:)

dumbness the 'inn' element..... lol

'dumbness' sells!!!....be it bipasha in d-2 , hasini of bommarillu.... or mandira in her incorrigibly stupid cricket commentry shows....oh ya...ppl do like the concept of a gal being dumb n totally buy it!!....but honestly can any self respecting gal picture herself as one of those 'dumb' charecters....!!!!....lol...

n i guess the male species also seem to prefer the dumb ones....(considering the fact there would not be a guy who was not floored by 'hasinis' dumbness(thy claim acting beauty n all but believe me thts secondary hehe....)..n maybe ths seems justified to a certain extent....for there exists the EGO n for sure these 'dumb ones' cause no threat to tht (read:precious)element... ;-)


wht say gals?? ...lol.....

(damn it!!! total feminism here!! lol)

rain atlast..........

it was more a case of...'kale megha kale megha pani tho barsao'...........

date 10/03/07 time 1:00 ......the lovely day starts at 1:00.....and i'am still awake figuring out my regression equation......n my sweet heart krish calls up....we talk n talk for over 2 hrs......all topics ranging from 'u gal species are hopeless' to 'our screwed up sems'........n after gtng a big blasting for being over nice to ppl and also for getting disappointed over mudane thngs...(mundane not really.. :-( ..... ) we hang up!!!(his cell balance would have bombed...)....i get back to my regression work....done with estimation ...left is validation and curve fitting and eureka!!!(rofl..) 1 hr of total blood and work done......i dont see the time its almost 3:00 in the morning......and i happily sms my project groupe.....time series done....(good that i was too lazy to call up ..lol)...

thn zzzzz that is only after 2 more rounds of pancharatna krithis,.....(latest craze ..)....

and after another session of documentation in the morning with project mates....goto college and show my guide the results......he says...with a biiiiig smile..."i am really happy your work is over..."........i still wonder if he realised the results and regression i implemented were on excel!!

and now it is 15:00 hrs, i enter my classroom...only to find a mini 'mehandi' function going on....... (wow...tht was my lab groupeee.....oh ya!!she is a 'to be' bride n is gtng engaged in 2 days....)gen crap with her for some time.......she looks different ..(thats the bridal glow from within is it... ;-)....)really happy for her.......btw over enthu that i am......i get some mehandi on my hand too...... (bride's maid types...lol..)......

now i go to the eee block simulation lab(the sincere ,sloggers building) to transfer some pages needed for documentation to my pen drive.....that done ..no i dont leve so early!!........some gossip,sms transfers... . blah blah......now is 16:25 hrs.. time to leave......

me n anisha(a eee student..i rarely allow ppl to stay sincere...) decide to go for a walk at necklace road(the weather bieng so nice...n cloudy..)....after another round of gossip/jacking session in the bus......we get down at secretariat and decide to walk.....n there comes the rain......wow......rain wow!!!!!!too gud!!!totally mast tha!!!...but the only problem was that we were carrying a project document.......so we take an auto....(totally drenched...trying to save the project material..).......(actually grabbed the auto from 2 guys ....dint know hyd had such awesome looking guys till thn.... :P......thy dint mind though n were even kind enough.....to wave a good bye... lol......)

The lake looked so awesome .......n the smell of wet mud......aha....lovely!!!.......
we almost reach rajbhavan n the rain stops.......thts whn a impulsive decision to go and have chat!!!n man!!!garam chat wth garam chai! at 'agra wala' can anyone ask for more!!(well i would not mind smone paying th bill.... lol.....)...thn its back home all drenched!!!.........

so barso re megha!!!....nothing like summer showers!!!!....... :-)

blog from college

This is my first blog from college net lab......the kind of person i 'am, given a chance i would be the first to leave college....but today its different.....the net lab suddenly seems more inviting..(considering the fact that the administrator switched on all the air conditioners ...., 40 degrees outside and 1:00 in the afternoon...) and also maybe because anisha persuaded me to stay and finish my documentation (which apparently i'am not doing now)......

yesterday was a prty frustrating and would call it one of my 'worshtu' day'...so i was enthu about leaving home and coming to college.Here as the ghissus had already come, all the main better,fast comps got occupied..and i'am left with th loser ones.....but the comps reserved for the lecturers still there...and my putting a desperate face that i needed a comp with a pen drive facility got me one of the reserved comps...... :-)..(did i actually have a pen drive lol..)

after some copy pasting ,making an arbit senseless draft i hit the 'compose','attach' and 'send' to my class topper(who also happens to be my project mate) ....so that we can discuss it the next day...

now that main work is done....me all vetti.......

here i'am......... blogging from college.... ;-)

(seriously i have become so jobless.........).....

animals.........part 1

God's loveliest creations.......it is surprising that when i think of the word 'bear'...the image i see is of 'baloo-papa bear' of talespin otherwise its my teddy bear...as a kid , i really wanted a bear(to be precise a bear cub) at home just because it is a soft furry cute looking animal......but one trip to the zoo....and mummmyyyy no bears !!!!(they seemed to have prty rough fur ,sharp long nails, dusty and climbed trees in a weird manner.... :-O )....

Elephants-huge,majestic,eat a lot!!!........the temple elephant of kumbhakonam is my favorite one ......so playful and happy...i named him the happy elephant... (until i met this guy it somehow never striked me that the trunk of an elephant was its nose....lol... i was under this horribly stupid impression that they use it for drinking water)....and btw this guy only drinks filter(pure) coffee...

tortoise- tippu!!!!.....my school mate had a tortoise called tiptop.....at least from the lil interaction i had with this guy .....he proved to be the most cost-effective pet......eats 4 beans a week.....and is in hibernation most of the time..........
he looked cute unlike the 'teenage mutant ninja turtles'...

he so tiny...
and his shell all shiny.....
:-P

rabbits- pinky-white ,delicate bundles of cotton . the lunch hours of my 1st yr engi for about 3 months were dedicated to feeding carrots to the lovely rabbits at oasis(thts a play school located beside my college....)that was a pleasure indeed... :-) ( sad they had to go..)
but more recently got to see these beautiful creatures again at rajeev's place and man they were as soft as ever!!! :-)


dogs-lovable,friendly,best companion anyone can have.........

ROCKY!!!-a doberman pincher!!!....well dont get carried away by that......this guy had all qualities except of that of a pincher!!......playful,no sign of any sort of ferociousness

his vet was always of the opinion -"too playful to be a doberman"

well as a dog....he was just like any other dog......hated baths,loved crispy biscuits/pedigree,playing,.....and after a bath got dead hyper active....
he considered himself to be way too old for kids to play with him......he consciously ignored them... :P

but he did prove that he had sme qualities of a 'hunting dog' by hunting down a pigeon (who happened to be lazing on the fence oblivious of his presence).......and also a rat who was trying to play hide n seek wth him ......(not too sure if that counts for hunting)....


on the whole a sweetie pie ,one who i can never forget!! :(

animals rule!!!! :)

ps. if the villian's apprehension in 'open season' ever comes true... i need not worry....i have my animal buddies...... :-)

music......

aaaa...... theres music everywhere....like some ppl cannot live without newspaper/books...i cannot imagine a day without music.....i'am open to any kind of music as long as it appeals to me.....

Though i do take a special liking to carnatic music...(which i sing- not a great singer though)..

the raaga's which are on my favourite list are

malayamarutham--->also called the morning raaga becoz generally sung in the morning...and aaah listening to ths raaga is like sipping hot coffee.

kanada---->an awesome raaga....so melodious and soothing...and the alaipayuthe song....totally mindblowing

bhairavi------>a unique raaga...equally melodious

and shanmukhapriya--->i have no specific reason but maybe the fact that a song sharavanabhava(tuned to ths raaga) was one of may favourite songs.

and coming to the lyrics

i have never really tried to understand what the composer intends to tell.....but recently while downloading one of the songs from a website which also provided the meaning of the song i could not help but appreciate the poetic feel the composer has tried to give to the song while still holding the essence of the song intact.....be it bhakthi,sringara......

Carnatic music has cme a long way.It is interesting to see so many artistes ,still actively involved in research .Everytime i attend a concert of bombay jayashree(i would call her god) or for that matter even my music class group singing , i feel bad that i dont dont spare time to practice .........

music is everywhere.........

60%,......

interviewer/relative/prof/hod:whts ur %??
me:it keeps wavering between 60-65%,actually i'am a prty consistent u see.
interviewer/relative/prof/hod:why such a low %????wht hppend??
me:hmmmmm.....(thinking...bloody i'am not bothered why th hell r u.......hmmm...

60%.....well ths is not wht i aimed to score whn i took up engg.I was a consistent 80% above category before i took up engg....but belive me thts an elite grp..not everyone gets to stay there perenially...(moreso because it requires you to be a total geek).

let me categorize the subjects-
(1)You know the subject,the university does not give you good marks.
(2)You hardly care about it because your sure either case ur aim shld be to pass and be done with it.
(3)The questions related to this subject donot have any kind of demarked border line,so anything and everythng could be asked in the exam.
(4)You open the book just a day before the exam , and realize you actually cannot read that in a day.

subject(1)--max score a 65%
(2)---->40%(yipppeee nythng above ths is regarded as bonus)
(3)----->0%-100%...(well the univ has sole rights to declare the whole paper was out of syallbus else ur doomed!!)
(4)-->40%+

well in my case wth all subject's lying in one of the above categories gtng a 60% above is grt!!! ;)
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A typical day of a person belonging to th 80% above elite group.

(1)wake up wth a book in hand(early risers)/goto bed wth th book in hand(late night slogging grp)
(2)visit library for additional reading.
(3)turn into a parrot(copy notes) and stare at the ppl who talk while a class is in progress.
(4)Visit the prof. to get doubts clarified.
(5)be the first to volunteer to take a seminar class.


(again here we hav exceptions ,who prefer(act) not to be associated wth ths grp).

A normal students day!!!
-wake up late after a session of late night (FRIENDS,orkutting,chatting,record writing,movie...)
-reach late fr th 1st class(provided u actually goto cllge tht day)
-solve sudoku/word jumble,read hp/sidney sheldon/ny novel,sms frnds,read newspaper,record writing.....purpose is just to hav ur ass there,else the system of attendence % is bound to screw you.
-cllge done...get back to comp,internet ,movies,FRIENDS,orkutting,chatting,record writing.





me:(thinking....)hmmmmm.......sir/madame becoz i was not a geek n i had fun!!!! :P

my trouble with english.......

The last few days i have been pondering on what could be the possible reason behind the large number of grammatical mistakes i make while speaking english.
I realised this when i found difficulty in forming complete sentences without grammatical errors. As i type this blog i realize that its not just the grammatical errors, i'am not confident about my spellings either. This was not the case before.(i mean my school days).Could this be because of the lack of writing practice?i blame my engineering course for that!!.But when i analyze this problem in depth ,i can point out more than one reason for this.

In school, my teachers were fluent in english,unlike the lecturers i presently face at college. Two consecutive years of their lectures can make anyone forget their english.Let me give a feel of the classes i attend,daily!!
design:-(a session on 'reliability')all the lecturer talks about is apples and mangoes, at the end of one hour all of us are left wondering as to what has ‘reliability’ to do with
apples and mangoes. And god save us 'the langauge', even a person not fluent in english would find that all words used in the sentence follow a random order.You might need to program yourself to understand as to whats going on!!
-electronics(a subject which tops the 'bouncer'list):-here the lecturer uses so many "is'nt it" that by the time the student locates the subject hidden in between the ocean of"is'nt it's" the class comes to an end.so i think the qoute"i was intelligent,education ruined me"
holds good for me..
And with regard to my spellings, i use so many abbreviations while chatting on the net ,i dont even spare the smallest word. (even in this case I’am not the person to be blamed……it’s the need for speed…can’t waste precious internet hours)
Now coming to why this sudden realization.the answer ...
The genuis brain i house within, thinks that the american universities need to be graced by my presence, and my research work is going to change the world.....still din't
get it......its GRE..

-->Tuesday, July 19, 2005

hmmmm.......

....there are so many thoughts running in my head .....too many to mention....nyways....just that last 2 weeks hav been real hard for me....sometime's when u hav spent some odd yrs wth a person n u actually develop a good opinion abt thm n thts whn ..bam!!!! thy do smething u would hardly expect!!!..well here i'am not talking abt pleasent surprises!!...as a person i belong to the species who just cant take lies and manipulations n th sort!!....so whn faced wth ths situation i'am all angry ,irritated....n aaaaahhhh!!!well i hav gone thru ths session of advices..'wht others do should not affect u n blah blah..'... it doesnt work like tht fr me!!!!....but learning to gt over thngs! :(.....so thn i decide to listen to sme radio...its afternoon time n all i gt is sme odd crappy pgms....i tune into ths chanel called BIG....n here we hav ths rj, all excited speaking to sme guy in his mid 40's.n it takes me 2 min to realize it's a game show ...n th question's askd r sooooooooo dumb...like fr eg. wht is the capital of india?? ,..option (a)delhi ..,option (b)california!!....n whn th caller gv's th right anwer..th rj gts bak to his excited self..n says"wow andi meeru entha correct ga answer ichesaru....illane correct answers isthu vellandi ..n dhana lakshmi ne sontham cheskondi!!!"(btw thts telugu)..i'am like wtf!!!..
fr no reason i cld sense a burning hate frm wthin fr bth tht rj guy n th caller!!!....i switch th channel....now we hav ths other rj who call's himself krish!!!....n his line is...'krish tho unte meru khush aipotharu'...omg!!.....n now tht i'am all khush after listening to krish...its time fr th finale...ths rj i guess cannot speak a word of english ..though i shld mention tht he did try!!!....n th way he pronounces his own name...."meru vintunaru blah blah...nenu mee razzzz(raj) ni.."... ....did i hear a bee buzz ..lol..